Kindness

Well, we survived the emotional trauma of Tuesday. Our SW called first thing on Wednesday to apologize and reschedule (in the evening so we don't have to miss more work). I was still pretty off on Wednesday. A couple friend of Tom's is expecting their third child and decided to have a last minute dinner celebration on Wednesday evening. Poor Tom asked if I'd like to go and I just started bawling...

Why is it so hard to be excited and celebrate with someone else who is successful in a place you are failing? I do not know, but I did know I didn't want to rain on their parade. So, rather than test my limits and fail more, I had Tom go and enjoy himself while I stayed home and watched some Netflix. It was just what I needed. 

I should add that I've now probably seen What to Expect when you're Expecting at least 6 times since May. I think I might have a problem. But for some reason it is comforting to me. So, what's the harm?! 

We also had a nice kind gesture by one of Tom's coworkers. They gave us a good sampling of blankets and clothes (mostly for a girl) in baby sizes to add to our collection. The sizes range from newborn to two year old. Even though we know we want 6 months or under, it is good to know we have a selection in case they are not standard sizes. If it is a boy, we'll just have to hope the few outfits we bought fit until we can get more! 

It is really nice to have the baby room done, and to not feel like an emotional wreck again. I am hoping that was just a moment of weakness and I can stay together through the rest of this process. People keep telling me I won't remember any of this hardship when we actually get a kid. While part of me hopes that is true, part of me hopes it's not. I'd love to forget all this, but I think it is part of our journey, and can help us help others in our same situation. 

So much of this journey was guessing and hoping. If we can hold on to this information and the process and frustrations to help someone else minimize or avoid them, that would be awesome. But just in case we don't remember, I'm hoping this blog has enough to help someone along. 

We still have yet to hear anything from our County Licensing SW and keep holding our breath and waiting. Hopefully he will call and schedule our inspection soon. We and the house are definitely ready! Until then, we will just keep working toward our goal and pray that the right child (baby, please be a newborn baby) is out there or on its way to us!